Let go of what? Is what I answer back. When first embarking on the spiritual path, It is safe to assume that one knows they will face criticism for not conforming, for being spiritual but not religious. One knows that eventually in the end they will have to do it on their own. They will have to de-plant the seed of attachment and hatred and let go of all negativities and lower qualities.
So far, those of us who are trying to get on the "fast track" to enlightenment or spirituality, we figure go ahead and get it over with now. Don't try to find a significant other, don't worry if you have friends or not or if the ones you have will remain, oh I don't need to worry about getting new clothes and if those pants rip oh well it's ok. And we think ok I've let go, what's next?
Then the paralysis sets in. Your unable to move, your just stuck unsure of why you're body isn't doing what the mind tells it to. You're so antsy to get a head start on the fast track that you never realize that you missed it entirely.
If the concept of letting go was that easy, we would all be spiritual. It's more than that. It's deeper, harder and requires way more effort and is so worth it. If you're like me, someone who researches and reads to make sure your knowledgeable, you have to let go of all the "knowledge" and information you have acquired from books, movies, TV and people. You have to let go of deep rooted beliefs and perspectives that have been instilled in you since birth; of society, of your present way of life, ideas of happiness, love and peace. Even once, even if you are able to let go of all of that and empty out your cup, there's still one drop of caffeine that's hard to get out, control...Or at least for me.
It has been instilled that you are the owner of your destiny, the pilot of your life and to some extent you are. You can control if you are happy, you can choose to be positive or be vegetarian. For spiritual seekers, who want to go beyond that into the deepest depth of the soul, control cannot be present. Why? Real Truth, God cannot be controlled or dictated. Simply, because it is unknown to you. How can you control that which you do not know, which you do not understand? It is impossible.
I believe that it is at this point where the seeker is able to genuinely, whole-heartedly surrender. Surrender to the teacher, to the guru, to Truth, to God.
I am at this paralysis. Unsure of how to truly let go. Because I know that the simple act of "thinking" of ways to let go, is control in and of itself.
