God is Warmth



Siddhas are Warmth



Siddhas reside within my soul



My Soul resides within Me



Warm



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Pulsing



Vibrating



Pulsing Warmth throughout my entire being



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Warmth

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I AM THAT...

I've always prided myself on being a very independent and strong woman. I was raised on the principle that no one can do it for you, you have to do it yourself. This is a principle that has its time and place in a person's life, but not for the entire duration of it.







When I was trying to make straight A's in grade school to get in honors classes for high school. When I was volunteering at several non profit agencies, playing high school sports, working and trying to maintain my grades to get into college, this phrase carried me through. It got me into college, graduated with a degree in 4 years, and landed me a good job.







Things have changed. My life has changed. My purpose has changed. This principle no longer has a place in my life. Yet I can't let it go.







I can't shake the pride I have in doing something completely on my own and showing the world that it was all me. To be quite honest, I've never had anyone try to be there or do things for me to even know what it feels or would look like.







I've learned a lot over the past few months, few weeks even. Most of which has come from myself, spiritual individuals, spiders, millipedes and ladybugs. Yes, ladybugs.







I was walking my dog today. We took an extremely long walk which we haven't done in a long while with all the snow. While we were on our way home, I noticed a puddle of melted water an a ladybug on dry sidewalk heading towards it.







If you don't know, I have always been fascinated by nature; its creatures, how they move, where they go and so on. I can sit and watch a spider just chill on the ground or hang on its web for minutes. So of course, I stopped to see the ladybugs' journey.







It slowly began to crawl near a patch of damp sidewalk. It easily made it through that.







Then it enter the shallow end of the puddle. It easily made it through that.







Gradually it got deeper and deeper. It wasn't until the ladybug reach the crack. The ditch between sidewalk and solid ground could it not go any longer.







I could see its tiny legs moving. Trying to get across, but with no luck.







Finally, I couldn't take it any longer and gave the little one a nudge to get to the grass.







Lesson you may ask? I have your answer.







We try and try and try to do things on our own. We research and research and find techniques to battle whatever obstacle is in our path. To make it through the storm, the river, the puddle, the day, the week or what have you on our own, but there comes a point where we all need a little nudge.

















So today and everyday remember

the little ladybug :-)

Yin Yang, Sun and Moon, Day and Night, Good and Evil, Feng Sui, Yoga.

All of these terms are centered around the art of balance. In just about all, spiritual practices the goal is balance, stability, "groundedness", permanence, a solid foundation, a rock of balance.

Now I know what I'm about to say may sound crazy, but the truth is revealed in (at least to me) in the most unexpected and non-traditional ways. On one of my personal retreats, I had just finished sadhana in one of my favorite places, the meditation room. After my session, I was completely relaxed. I wasn't eager to do something else, I wasn't trying to fill my time. I was just enjoying myself in the present moment in that room. When I noticed a millipede or maybe it was a centipede, who knows, crawling on the mat. For some reason, I was amazed. I leaned over and just began watching this creature crawling on the mat.

Let me give a brief description of this mat. The mat was a natural beige color with some sections being a darker beige. The weaving of the mat was in rows. Each row kind of reminds you of little bubbles or bundles and in between them are little ditches. In either case, each row is as straight as can be.

This millipede was just crawling this way and that. It was going down, down, down, then up and then straight, back down and then up. It was hard keeping up with the direction that this creature was going. I was sitting there thinking, "man where are you trying to get to? What are you searching for?" All the while the rows stayed the same, not fluctuating, not moving with the millipede.

Then it made its way off the mat onto the concrete floor. Its movement became even crazier. Now off in the distance was a spider. I was thinking, "surely this spider is going to pounce on the millipede for food or something." As the millipede continued with its crazy movements and unpredictable direction, the spider did not move once.

It stayed in its spot, just as still and calm as it could be. One might have thought it had passed away or perhaps it was even in Samadhi J But it never moved, never followed the millipede or tried to chase it.

Life is the millipede. It is always changing. It will give you times of peace and happiness and constant success. Other times it will take you so far into the darkness, that you feel as though there is no way out. Other times it will leave you stagnant, stuck in the middle of no where.

Your soul is the rows in the mat, the spider that stays grounded, still and calm in their spot.

In life, one must remember the true nature of the soul. Grounded, still and calm no matter the situation, in times of lows AND highs.